The funny feeling

I just had a funny feeling today. It's funny because I never felt something like this before. Maybe I did. But, that was probably a long time ago.

I felt my heart beating fast, but I try to control my composure to avoid making myself to look like a total nutcase.(that's because we haven't really met face-to-face since 3 2 years ago (in a wedding.) (whoah?? that long ago?).Felt nervous seeing her tho I have no idea why.

Anyways, I wanted to go over and talk to her but I kinda shy because she's surrounded by people.

I was struggling , in the end,however, I didn't have an opportunity like
Mr. Reality Show contestant to talk 1-on-1. So, I just waved at her when I was about to leave. She noticed and she waved too. (yea. I know lah.. very silly lah.. what to do... cannot talk mah.. mah wave lah... better than nothing right?)

As I was on my way back home, she SMSed me apologizing didn't talk to me. (IT WAS MY FAULT actually, WHY AM I SO SHY?!! okies lah.. what to do? I lembap mah).

lembap: means inactive / sluggish in Bahasa Malaysia.in some extreme terms, lembap can mean cissy , basically someone who is a chicken.

I just replied saying that it's just weird, talking(chatting up) in funeral (yes, this time we met in a funeral pulak).Talk about timing , eh? I said hopefully we do meet some other time. By then, I hope we can have a decent conversation.

The End.

P/S: My heart is seriously wrong. But, I don't think I need to fix it. I just feel "alive".