It's not nice and I don't like it either.

It's been 5 days (27/05/2006) since 1 of my colleagues passed away. He died due to a fatal accident in the workplace. I work in a manufacturing based company, accidents and deaths can be quite common
in this industry if safety precautions are not taken. But, it doesn't mean that I don't feel
for these people who injured, died while working. I feel for them, but because I hardly know them
so it doesn't really affect me emotionally. There are roughly 1500-2000 staff, workers, etc. in this whole place. You can't really expect to know everyone on a personal level. Anyhow, this time it's just wee bit different. I know this guy. He was my friend, I would some chit chat with him once in a while. I know he's a good guy, he really works hard. I dealt with him a lot on my programming modifications. It was just sad when I heard about the news. When a clerk broke the news about his death around 8.30am. I heard an ambulance siren just before she mentioned about it. I thought the ambulance came in for someone else. It wasn't someone else. It was HIM. I was surprised when she told me about his death, I was still waiting for someone to confirm that news. When I saw people gathering around and whispering with each other, and I saw a female colleague who was also close to him cried, I know this has to be him. I was stunned. That whole morning, it just didn't felt good at all. It just felt weird.

When I got back home, I was going through my mind as what his wife would feel like when she received news about her husband's death. She must be devastated. As I was thinking about it, his voice kept running through my mind. It was like....I met him yesterday. I felt like crying but there were no tears. I finally understood how does it felt like to lose someone close to you.I know I will never be prepared for something despite that I think I can handle this kind of things. I was sad then mad about how God could take away someone's life just like that. I questioned why and how can such event occur.It just seems unfair, because he won't be able to see his children grow up to be mature adults. Well, as one of the company staff just put it, "maybe it's just his fate."

Well, Mr. Y. May you rest in peace.

A new month!!

It's starting a new month. Well, again, I haven't been blogging because there's nothing much to blog about. haha.

No. it's more like I'm lazy and there stupid dial-up connections sucks that whenver I want log into blogger. It just taking too long so I just give up and don't bother updating my blog.

Hmmm. let me see what happened last month. Well, 1 of my kittens died. I'm not sure what's the cause of death. A few days prior to its death, it doesn't seem to have any appetite. At first, I thought it wander off somewhere and didn't come back. But, the smell of its rotten body hit my senses, I realised it have been dead for a few days , with maggots crawling all over. It's not a pretty sight. Despite throwing up, I still snapped some photos before I packed it into garbage bag.I was rushing to work, what do you expect me to do? Dig a hole? (sorry , animal activists , I know the kitten deserved better).

On my work, I was given an (important) assignment to create a certain program. When I started on this assignment I was totally clueless. When I started to get some help, then all those solutions came clear to me. I mean then I found there a few ways to solve the problem. So, it was great fun to clear (almost) everything , and start from scratch again. Yeah, it was tough but it was great learning experience. That's why I liked programming. hehe.

Well, that's all for now.